roman’s blog

When I think about my life’s education route I have to stop and wonder, sometimes in awe, of how unfortunate of a road I ‘ve traveled. In no way am I asking for sympathy; I am actually pleased that I haven’t faired worse. But listening to how high schoolers talk about how they can’t bring home anything less than an A used to, not that long ago, really confuse me. I figured I was fortunate that my parents did’t push me in school and weren’t at all involved in my education. It’s not that they didn’t want to push me, no, If they had the slightest clue they would. But they were first generation immigrants possesing little English and no knowledge the school system. They couldn’t tell me to sign up for an AP class or get involved with this club because its going to help me out later. In fact,  I had to explain to them what my grades meant (some students would call me lucky but I’d argue otherwise). This was the start of my education. An open door to developing bad studying habits and a lack of seriousness.

I, being naturally slow with catching onto things, have been sort of forced to figure out how school really works, I think now I understand, but its taken quite sometime to get here and I’ve taken quite some damage. For me this really hits home now as a senior and goes back to when I  first started high school because I knew I had to get better grades but I still really didn’t realize how important that was.  I didn’t get punished for bringing home a C in 10th grade math and that made it alrght to get a B- the next time around. I formed some bad habits but there was no one to sit me down and correct me and tell me I was screwing up. I just didn’t realize I was screwing myself over. Now as a senior I long to have had the parents like those of the role model kids, the kind that push you to the edge and encouraged you to challenge yourself, the ones that make you realize that average is not enough. More specifically, parents that know what “AP classes” are because I didn’t even know about them until half way through my sophomore year. It is very frustrating knowing only with a bit knowledge of the system and a bit more seriousness,  I could be in great academic position, but here I am as a senior with a 3.2 and only 2 semester left to fix that. I know I can get straight A’s and that’s what I’m shooting for but the desired study habits haven’t been formed and I’m really worried about any negative ones carrying on into college. Having said all that, I realize I need to stray away from putting the blame on other people and push myself to rise to the occasion. If anything I have myself to blame for not catching on fast enough. I just wish I had more guidance as a young student. All frustrations aside, I’m really looking forward to what I can accomplish my senior year here at Fife!