roman’s blog

When I try to think back to the times when I needed someone’s help I really can’t put the dot on just one person. For me it’s always been a continues cycle of different people throughout my life. Two years ago I might have said it was Jesus and just other people in my church. But since those days all those people have all kind of failed when I needed support especially when you have “doubts,” or maybe it’s the simple fact that I’ve decided to stop taking their advice and started thinking for myself. Either way, If I had to find someone that did at one time help me I’d have to say it was my youth pastor who I was really great friends with. He was only about five years older than me but he was the greatest role model at the time because his life seemed so perfect…Course I know now that wasn’t the case but either way we were really good friends because we basically agreed on everything. I’ve learned that a simple way to lose people like this is just to simply disagree, so I guess I had it coming.

These days I don’t really have a “lifeline” or so to speak but I take pride in being able to work things out myself. I feel like I don’t necessarily need someone to sit down with and talk about my feelings with because I know that not too many people care about what I have to say so I just take it in stride. On the other hand, I’ve found endless new people that I can look up to. People that are respected, smart, and just plain cool. Like my saxophone teacher is seriously one of the coolest guys I have ever met. He gives me way longer lessons that what I’m paying for… Not just that but we always talk during the week and he’s always giving me free advice and inviting me to all his gigs. He’s always sending new material my way and lately he’s been helping me with my college admissions and I feel like his being there helping me is making the process a lot easier. Simply put it he’s awesome and a very open-minded person who is what I think when I think about me in the future.